||[Feb. 4th, 2005|08:07 pm]
So, I feel really bad right now. Ryan called me. I hate the fact that I can tell he still has so many feelings for me. Especially because I am not sure that I can ever feel the same about him again. I know that he has said that there is hope for us when he gets out of the Navy, but I think we will be in two completly different places in our lives. I still haven't told him that I have a new boyfriend. I don't think I will be able to because he is going through so much with the Navy. Grrr. I wish that there were something I could do to make everything ok again.
Anyway, I have to try and find a way home next weekend so I can be there on my niece's birthday. Or I can just wait till the weekend after so that I am there for the long weekend and can work while I am there.
I can't decide if tonight I am going to go to the hockey game or if I am going to a party. The game is in Lexington and starts at midnight. I wish that Robert were here to go with me, but he has the stupid brotherhood retreat this weekend. He should be here tomorrow night though. I think that he will go with me to the game then. Or tonight I can skip both and go to the Midnight Breakfast. Hmmmm....
Well, I gotta run for now.